Relieved

Hello sports fans. So I'm not the next Canadian Idol and I couldn't be happier.

The audition process was looong, peppered with crazies and performance school sweethearts. When it came time for the first audition I had to pee so bad from all the water I drank I was surprised I could sing at all. There were five of us and then the guy went into his speil about how it never gets any easier to tell people to go home...I thought I was done for...(eternal optimist that I am). But he said he was keeping me and another girl. He then asked me a whole slew of questions and remarked that I had a girl-in-a-band vibe, which was funny since I haven't been in a band since I was twenty. Then after I got my first "go ahead" it was five hours before the next audition. Then the second lady (we'll call her the blonde behemouth) tells me when I am done singing that I have a singer-songwriter vibe and that I have a very pretty voice. I hear a but in her voice even before she tells me to sing my next song. She says I have a breathy thing going on...(all these vibes and goings on...)but that she isn't putting me through but that I should start a band. Second producer telling me I should start a band. Maybe someone is telling me something? Ya think?

Anyway, the experience was very positive and I think some of my friends are more pissed than I am about not going to Toronto. Who wants to go to Toronto anyway? I'm just so glad I did it. Frankly the night before in a rageoholic fit I exclaimed that I wasn't going to do it, that I couldn't...that there wasn't any point. I'm so glad I was told to shut up.

I also now have my show to prepare for in April, which now seems like a much less daunting task. Seems like an fucking breeze, actually.

Hope Sunday finds everyone well and relaxed and rested. peace.